One tiny step at a time.
It’s a funny juxtaposition, but even though I’m a dance teacher by training and have been running my own company for the last 8 years, I have always suffered from anxiety, mostly brought on by new social situations.
I realised when I had my little girl last year that I was going to have to do some serious work on this so that I didn’t let her know I felt this way and to make her as confident as possible (although never too forward or precocious!).
So I have been consciously ‘putting myself out there’. I have made an effort to go to mummy and baby groups, and actually talk to the mummies not just hide behind V as I would have been more comfortable doing. I have got out there for the first time in two years and pitched for new business and today I am off to a seminar in Islington!
That’s a pretty big deal for me; no daughter to give attention to if I feel uncomfortable, no hiding behind needing to leave for nap time and none of my friends will be there to buddy up with. Just me and a room full of people I’ve never met.
Must admit I’m pretty proud of myself, albeit utterly terrified at the same time!
So off I go! Wish me luck and I’ll let you know how it goes later.