It’s true. But I never really appreciated how true until this week.
Last August, when I fell seriously ill during my pregnancy, I started the craziest juggling act of my life. I tried to keep my business going (a dance school with six staff members and over 200 students) and be a wife, mum-to-be, daughter, sister, friend and all things to all people.
I was struggling with it all, trying to make everyone think that you’re ok when you really feel like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders is really hard. No matter how into the arts you are, that’s an act that’s seriously hard to keep up!
So this week I decided it was time to ‘fess up. Time to let my friends and family know that actually, it’s too hard for me to be all things to all people and keep my business going, while most importantly being Mummy to my new little baby and wife to my lovely hubby and somewhere along the way remembering to look after me too.
And do you know what. I’m so glad I finally had the courage to explain the cancelled coffee dates, the unanswered text messages and the disappearance from my normal life. Now everyone knows that it’s nothing personal.
On top of that, it’s amazing as I now have had the chance to stop feeling guilty and get a little plan in place for moving forward and getting the best balance in my life.
The messages of support from friends and family have actually been quite overwhelming. I wasn’t putting it out there for people to comment, per se, just so that everyone knows it really wasn’t anything personal – just a little glitch from me that I was sorting out. Yet the words of kindness and wisdom from my nearest and dearest have made me feel all warm and fuzzy.
This blog was borne out of an intrinsic need to find the sparkly lining of every cloud, no matter how dark. I need to take a leaf out of my old book and remember that!
Onwards and upwards. And thank you to my truly wonderful friends and family!